This is a blog where I’m actually going to try to post. Crazy, I know. I have a plan, however.

Instead of boring details about what girl I like or why you simply must listen to the tracks of Lateralus in the Fibonacci sequence, I’m going to write about pain. I’m going to write about what it’s like to have pain all the time. I know, there’s plenty of chronic pain blogs out there, but I’m trying to focus on the fact that it’s real. This really is pain, and this really affects every single aspect of my life. From working to walking to having sex to bathing to wiping my own ass, pain makes everything harder, and makes you want to do them less frequently. I will do my best to present chronic pain sufferers as not drug addicts, but real people that have a real disability, and it’s really not that hard to understand if you really try really hard. Really.

I’ve started off by “importing” some things I’ve written on the topic in the past and put them up as back-dated posts. I’m planning on going through my old blog and importing some of the posts from around 2007, where I frequently started posting on some sort of ache in my back that just wouldn’t go away. Keep in mind 2007 was really two years after it started, and when I started aggressively seeking medical help since I could no longer manage it by myself. I will tag all of these back-dated posts with “imported” as to set them slightly apart from this new endeavor.

What I hope to accomplish is simple. I hope that someone, somewhere, even just one person stumbles onto this blog and finds acceptance of this issue, whether in the form of pure knowledge or in the form of embracing their aunt’s rheumatoid arthritis instead of yelling at her for being late to the birthday party. I want people that have loved ones with a pain problem to understand that no, we’re not using these drugs for fun, and yes, it really is hard to get out of bed. For some of us in pain, we’d rather sleep, because sleep doesn’t hurt.

My ambitions are high, but at least I have them.